Though I was making it...

Ok got back on the scale this morning and I am 220... WTF... ok, well I am going to say that I don't care what the number is but inside my mind I will not forget. I really should just throw my scale out but, it makes me feel like I am on the right track every once in a while... NOT right now... But I again am going to say I don't care.. I am exercising at least evey other day for 45 min. I just bought a bike, so I am hoping that will help and I can increase my time.. For me It diet.... I need to find a way to feel ful and curb my sweet cravings.. I think I may need help... Maybe it would do me well to look at weight watchers, but I am so picky about food its hard... Bugger.. So today I am fell blah.. Ging to ride my bike now....

I am making it..... So far...

Ok well I am making it so far, I have no idea how many days I am into this new deal, but this moring I got on the scale and I an 216. So happy, major happy.. It working.. Today I am running out to go and get a bike for the basement and then the husband and I can work out together...

Stay tuned...

Coral

On a role...

I am on a roll, I have it the tred mill now three days in a row, today will be four.. My legs hurt but my body feel great, I finally feel like I am doing something for myself... I feel like I deserve time for me too. So whener ever I can I sneak down for 40 min. On thurs and friday I did 40 min saturday I did 45 min.... I feel great.. I stepped on the tred mill after my last run /jog /walk wahtever it is that I am going and was 222... Not good...But I don't care because I feel like a million bucks.... Sore but still like a million bucks... Stay tuned...

I did it..... Yeah

Today I meet my tredmill again... Thank god... I feel so much better, I have been so tired and lazy lately and I fell like I have jumped a hurtle... and you know what it was not bad at all.. I had to start off slow because well I am huge but I am hoping to make this a repeat experience. Other than children fighting and trying to kill each other while I was exercising, it was great.... Maybe it time for me now.... Hummm... wouldn't that be nice...

I just started back to school and life is going to get crazy so my fingers are crossed that I can make some time for myself too... Lets hope..

Procrastination...

Procrastination refers to the act of replacing high-priority actions or tasks with low-priority actions, and thus putting of important tasks to a later time.

Word for the day... lets get serious, its the word for my life. If I am plain and simple not in the mood and feel like I don't have what I need to do something I will plain just not do it... Yup thats me.... So I feel and look gross but just can't bit the bullet to get going with exercise... I don't even hate it.. In fact I like it, but with so many other obligations such as kids, school and well life I can't seem to make any time for myself. All I want to do when I am home alone and I have a few minutes for myself is just lay down and sleep or read. I feel like I never get to do anything for myself. I suppose you can say that I go to school and that is for me, but really it is for my family. I am doing it so I can get a better job that will also allow me to have summer off with my kids. And truthfully is someone offered me a job right now I would probably take it.. I am so done with juggling everything, but the truth of the matter is that if I work full time we make even less money because I pay havlf of what I am making to day care.. And truefully I dont want my kids in daycare all day... Emma will be in school beginning in september and that should help things out a little bit.

God its so hard to get going and get organized... I feel like I am being pulled in a million directionsa.. I have a studpid little gas station job that help us pay for a few thing but really its $10 and hour.. Is it really worth it? We have grown to rely on the extra money it gives us...

Ok so I think you have heard most of my excuses, now I just need to overcome them.... good luck to me.... In the back of my mind I am thinking I am waiting to get the exercise bike before I start but that is stupid... Plain and simple I feel like I need a little break from life right now.. I want to do some things for me, like start swimming again and going to the gym but how do I do that and juggle the kids??? Question for the day!

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